Tuesday, August 22, 2006

आँसु र हाँसो साथ साथ

हिजो म र दिपेश जि सँग सगै बसेर कुरा कानी गर्दै थियौ कि ब्लग लाई नेपाली मा कसरी लेखेने भनेर। आज मैल आफ्नो सानो दिमाग लाई यता उता लगाएर तेस्को समाधान गरे दिपेश जि ।यो खासै गाह्रो काम रहेनछ ।यो सुचना क्रान्ति को समयमा जन्मेक हामी हरुलाई के को दुख्ह छ र?

तर मैले यो कुरा थाहा पाएको हुनाले तपाईंलाई पनि थाहा पाउनु छ भने केही बन्दो बस्त गर्नु पर्‍यो नि हैन र?

दिन भर थाकेर बल्ल बल्ल कोठा मा आए । थाकेर लखतरान छु म
हैरन छु म

यो ठाउँमा के गर्दै छु जस्तो लाग्छ मलाई त कैले कही ।

खाइ न पाई छालाको तोपी लाई भनेको एइ हो ।
दुनियाँ मा नभैको नियम छ यो ठाउँ म । पऋस्रम को अबहेलना भैरहेको बेला कसैले चुक्क पनि नबोल्ने हरुको बिचमा बसेर के गर्ने ।

भर्खर आको कोठा मा फेरी जाने बेला भो । धिक्कार छ यो जिन्दगी । कुकुर पनि आरमको निन्द्रा सुत्छ तर हाम्रो हालत के भएको होला?

ल आजलाई एत्ती मा नै चित भुजाउनु पर्‍यो नि/

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Woof so tired

This week was so busy, rather say hectic and tiring. Don no what will happen next week. If the same routine keeps on going I will loose few more pounds that I don’t want.

This week every second day was my 24 hour duty. 24 hour duty becomes 30 hours by the time i am free. Every case should be cleared from casualty before ending up the duty. This sucks me. And irritating problem is patients come to casualty at 7:55 and case of poly trauma at 7:55 will be my responsibility. It will definitely take hours and hours to manage and settle the problem. Till then I have to be there even after finishing the duty hours. This is how I don’t like this Asian system of working. Let’s say an American resident work for 24 hours means its 24 and no more than a second, next will come to free him. But this system of working less and crying more never can be changed if you are a sincere and hard working. people will keep on making you do work.

Till now I consider residency in Asian countries is a slavery nothing more. It’s an academic prostitution. Whole day you work for patient. No duty limitation, no human right, no basic rights of humanity (no time to have food and sleep in time, no personal life) and on top of that you will be screwed like a prostitute for mistakes. Sometimes you will loose self respect. I know much about Asian countries: everywhere residency is same with some personal, and institutional variation. Any time senior be faculty or senior colleague are ready for your faults. They are expert in finding what you have not done rather than what you have finished and how much it has contributed to the department. Everywhere principal is senior should not work and especially get their physical work done from the juniors. This holds true whether its best institute or worst. Punishment and punishment is the basic theory. The new trend is not teaching junior if their work is not done or they are not happy. Worse than a prostitute. She is paid whether you are satisfied or not. To get money is her right if she sleeps with you.

What sucks more is if you are doing residency in surgical fields you need seniors help to train yourself. This starts an exploitation of human labour. One side you have to get degree from department and other side you need to have help from senior colleague and it cuts both way. Both senior and faculty you have to satisfy. And you are the junior most; a new and young prostitute in the brothel !

And my status is a voluntary prostitute. A prostitute who satisfies a customer and his friends in a belief that main customer likes and marry her.

I don’t know whose fault is this. I am doing residency in this India’s great institute with no stipend. May be its my fault cause I came here. What a nonsense rule . foreign and sponsor are categorized in a same . its acceptable that a sponsored candidate gets stipend from his authority but what abut this poor foreign national. No sponsoring authority and no financial support at the age of 25 26 years life, you don’t have to search for a hell any more.

I am working like an obedient dog in a high hope that I will get a degree from a reputed institute no matter what quality i hold after getting a degree. I don’t think we will be an extra ordinary post graduate from this great institute itself. Still why this pseudo craze.

Since last few years there are people who are leaving even after getting admitted in this so called best institute ; a macca for every medical student.

What ever, once you are here for month’s time you have no option. Either continue in the way other like or leave. …….

No time to finish it …will write next time.

To be continued…….

Thursday, August 03, 2006

what a joke.....

laloo happened to be all time icon during my stay in bihar. after i left bihar i get to know laloo in news or paper. today my friend sent ma a joke. here it goes....

Laloo Prasad sent his Bio Data - to apply for a post in Microsoft
Corporation, USA . A few days later he got this reply:

Dear Mr. Laloo Prasad,
You do not meet our requirements. Please do not send any further
correspondence. No phone call shall be entertained.

Bill Gates.

Laloo prasad jumped with joy on receiving this reply.
He arranged a press conference : "Bhaiyon aur Behno, aap ko jaan kar
khushi hogee ki hum ko Amereeca mein naukri mil gayee hai."
Everyone was delighted. Laloo prasad continued...... "Ab hum aap sab
ko apnaa appointment Letter padkar sunaongaa ? par letter angreeze
main hai -
isliyen saath-saath Hindi main translate bhee karoonga.

Dear Mr. Laloo Prasad ----- Pyare Laloo prasad bhaiyya
You do not meet -----aap to miltay hee naheen ho
our requirement ----- humko to zaroorat hai
Please do not send any furthur correspondance ----- ab Letter vetter
bhejne ka kaouno zaroorat nahee.
No phone call ----- phoonwa ka bhee zaroorat nahee hai
shall be entertained ----- bahut khaatir kee jayegi.
Thanks ----- aapkaa bahut bahut dhanyavad.
Bill Gates. ---- Tohar Bilva.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Nepal ma pani auta AIIMS bhayeko bhaye!

Bhadhyatale harek din 7 baje uthne dimagi ghadi aaja pani 7 baje jurmurayera uthyo. Bicharolai ke tha dheri din pachi aaja mero kam kaj banda cha bhanera. Ho aaja achanak dheri din pachiko bystata pachi chuti thiyo.

Kamila le phul parera sana kamila niskane samaya bhaisakeka mera kitabharu, makurako jaloma nisassiyeka mera kitabharu, aafna batis bangara dekhayera sayed malai gijayeraheka thiye. Tara ma nakacharo bhayera hereko naherai gariraheko thiye.

Samayele fadko marne silsilama mero residency ko 1 barsa byatit bhayesakeko cha. Sayed jati haddi bigyan yenha aaunu aghi maile janeko thiye tyeti matramai simit bhayeko bhayepani aafno ejjat joginthyo ki?

Dam ra kam ko silsilama munglan paseka nepali haruko bhid ma ma pani samil chu. Farak yeti matra ho ma sanga mbbs nam ko khesro kagaj cha. Ma jani jani saririk ra manasik sosad ko bhagidar chu.din bhar rat bhar khai nakhai maile suruka 6 mahina aarpad gare . khai tyesko pratifal. Bas gali khau ra marachyase anuharma khusiko haso khisikka hasa ra gali sundai gara aafu bhanda thulako.

MBBS nam ko compounder rupi khesra kagaj ma bisasagya bhanaudo rangin kagaj jodna munglan paseko ma ra chaukidari garnema sara samanata cha, farak cha bhane gham pani nabhani pasina puchdai saririk sakti kharche bapat usle majduri paucha maile paudina.

Ke ma aanpadh gothale harke bhanda pani kam kamko hu ta?

Yo prasna maile aafulai sodhiraheko bela desh yad aayeraheko cha .matribhumi yad aayerahekobela padhe lekhera aangrej ko chaukidari garna pugeka aafna sahapathi ra des ani bechera aafno swartha lutiputi gariraheka neta haru yad aayeraheka chan. Ani antarman lai sodhchu Nepal ma apni auta AIIMS bhayeko bhaye sayed maile padhe lekhera pani Hindustani karmath chaukidar bannuparni thiyena.

Aafu sarahaka kala harule harek mahina 20 hajar I c jeb ma halda aakhibhau talu samma pugcha . ma bhane degreeko dasi chup chap chu. Ekohoro bhayera kam gariraheko chu. Aaba ta samaya yesto charamcha gadha la bhari bokna napauda aapati janaye jasto dimagi ghadi le aapati janaidida chuti bhayera pani aaja 7 baje aakha khulyo.

Same routine….

Feeling better. Day time I felt drowsiness. Started on intravenous fluid and antibiotics. Slept for few hours and started feeling better.

From evening resumed to routine duty. I was given a ward cover. Its a boring duty. Need to go to ward to look after post operative patients. Everybody seems to be fine.

Don’t know what will happen in the night. They may call me in the night. Till then I can share my time for what I like and what I mean to.

I thought of taking a photograph of my working place. Everyday I used to forget. Today seems to be right day. I clicked few and making it public. This is department of orthopaedics of the great all India institute of medical sciences, New Delhi.

Nothing more to write. Lot of things to do. Guess I should stop now.

Monday, July 31, 2006

oh god save me !

I never thought of beaing a patient apart from few minor problems in my health. i was busy treating others as usual. got up early in the morning with cramps in the abdomen. i noded my head and tried to find out where i have been last night and what i have ingested. same routine, same food still i could not point out the cause.

it was really embarasing going to toilet every half an hour. dont know what is happening. waited for hours to recover stiil there were no signs of change.i was supposed to go to the duty. i was worried whate to do now. i was getting weaker. cannot imagine how many liters of fluid i have passed.

still i went to the department and requested my prof. regarding my condition. so that he can make an alternative arrangement for the duty. i asked rest for today.i was permitted and told to take care. with a little hope of recovery i came to my room.

as usual people remember god at their most. same here i am praying god for a little hope, and speedy recovery. oh god save me!

At last i did it !

I was always thiking of cleaning my room since the begining of this month. sometimes i was busy and when i got time i turned to be lazy . but my room was getting worse .fully disorganised even could not find what i was expecting.

Today i was determined to take out at least few kilos of dust from my room. dust is of no use or else i would have got few dollars selling it. i got up early just to get started. within no time i got mentally exausted .i was worried how to start which corner to clean first ? no corner was left tidy. even celling was a best palace for spiders.

so again i slept.this is the only thing i can do without others help.i thought of taking help from lobbey servants. but this hurt my pride of doing everything self. keeping all this things in mind i slept .by the time i woke up it was 12 o clock. there was no duty today otherwise what would be my situation. i would have again scolded heavily for not going duty in time;a first and last threat .

i was still inconstant regarding my room . missed my breakfast, and i was 3 hour late to have lunch.i got up at 3 o clock.took a bath and went for lunch. by the time i reached canteen it was closed. quickly had a maggie and a cup of tea.i know it was not suficient for my stomach. still satisfied thinking sometimes you need to keep fast.

when i reached my room i was again fraustated.how to start ? i immediately left the room and marched towards library. read for couple of hours and had dinner. with energy and motivation i came to room again. this time i was energetic. i thought i will do it at any cost.
i was late to start. by the time i started few finished. and few more and few more.atlast few was left.with a smile in my face i was busy taking a snap as it was cleaned after a months. transfered it to my laptop and started gazing. oh is it my room? really it was loking nice to me.

checked mail and send it to few places. i considered it be my achievement of the day .

ohhh tomorrow is my 24 hours duty in the casualty. i shold sleep now .hope i can very well sleep in my clean and lovely bed today.dont you believe? check this out....

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Me here

hello everybody..

Its never late to start. Accidently i went through few blogs and i could not resist myslef from getting started.

thought twice before writing a blog ? burnt out physically, tensed off mentally and 180 professionally. can i met a bloggers limit. sorry i am not a blogger.

Its too late today. its already 2:52 am and have to go to work early morning. hope next day i will log again.