Monday, July 31, 2006

oh god save me !

I never thought of beaing a patient apart from few minor problems in my health. i was busy treating others as usual. got up early in the morning with cramps in the abdomen. i noded my head and tried to find out where i have been last night and what i have ingested. same routine, same food still i could not point out the cause.

it was really embarasing going to toilet every half an hour. dont know what is happening. waited for hours to recover stiil there were no signs of change.i was supposed to go to the duty. i was worried whate to do now. i was getting weaker. cannot imagine how many liters of fluid i have passed.

still i went to the department and requested my prof. regarding my condition. so that he can make an alternative arrangement for the duty. i asked rest for today.i was permitted and told to take care. with a little hope of recovery i came to my room.

as usual people remember god at their most. same here i am praying god for a little hope, and speedy recovery. oh god save me!

At last i did it !

I was always thiking of cleaning my room since the begining of this month. sometimes i was busy and when i got time i turned to be lazy . but my room was getting worse .fully disorganised even could not find what i was expecting.

Today i was determined to take out at least few kilos of dust from my room. dust is of no use or else i would have got few dollars selling it. i got up early just to get started. within no time i got mentally exausted .i was worried how to start which corner to clean first ? no corner was left tidy. even celling was a best palace for spiders.

so again i slept.this is the only thing i can do without others help.i thought of taking help from lobbey servants. but this hurt my pride of doing everything self. keeping all this things in mind i slept .by the time i woke up it was 12 o clock. there was no duty today otherwise what would be my situation. i would have again scolded heavily for not going duty in time;a first and last threat .

i was still inconstant regarding my room . missed my breakfast, and i was 3 hour late to have lunch.i got up at 3 o clock.took a bath and went for lunch. by the time i reached canteen it was closed. quickly had a maggie and a cup of tea.i know it was not suficient for my stomach. still satisfied thinking sometimes you need to keep fast.

when i reached my room i was again to start ? i immediately left the room and marched towards library. read for couple of hours and had dinner. with energy and motivation i came to room again. this time i was energetic. i thought i will do it at any cost.
i was late to start. by the time i started few finished. and few more and few more.atlast few was left.with a smile in my face i was busy taking a snap as it was cleaned after a months. transfered it to my laptop and started gazing. oh is it my room? really it was loking nice to me.

checked mail and send it to few places. i considered it be my achievement of the day .

ohhh tomorrow is my 24 hours duty in the casualty. i shold sleep now .hope i can very well sleep in my clean and lovely bed today.dont you believe? check this out....

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Me here

hello everybody..

Its never late to start. Accidently i went through few blogs and i could not resist myslef from getting started.

thought twice before writing a blog ? burnt out physically, tensed off mentally and 180 professionally. can i met a bloggers limit. sorry i am not a blogger.

Its too late today. its already 2:52 am and have to go to work early morning. hope next day i will log again.