Monday, April 07, 2014

When you are helpless....

When we are sick we go to a doctor. Many people have come to me with their high hopes. I am sure I have done a justice to most of them with the knowledge and ability I have. I have operated few thousands of patients who had their hand, arm wrist, shoulder, leg, ankle, thigh or hip fractures. Few had their spine fractures, with less mobile legs and are happily walking without walking aids now, after surgery. I remember their face one by one and the happiness in their face is what I meant and what I was dreaming for.
All of a sudden I am not happy. My daily routine is disturbed, my work, my surgery ad the connection with the patient has lost.  I am bed bound for last three days and every second is like an hour for me. And every hour is like a day. Frequent electricity cut down and exhausted and dried laptop cell has made me miserable to get connected with the friends inside and outside the country. My cellphone is too old. I am planning to buy a new one for ages and the day has never come to me. I planned to buy Samsung galaxy S2. Since then many new phones have become the sensation in the market. Now S5 has hit the market and youngsters are far ahead with the latest gadgets. I am stuck with the Galaxy Ace. I tried to upgrade but never got a chance to put so much of money. When you feel you have stepped up into other responsibilities, you step down your necessaries. Chalta hai! Chal raha hai! This is what has happened to me and I am carrying a same old phone. The GPRS is too slow and 3G is fast and smart enough to suck its battery. This is somewhere my problem lies.
I am not bothered with the problems with my machines. Problems with my body bother me much. It’s almost 8 days I am not well. It started with viral like illness. Had throat sore, dry cough, myalgia, watery eyes and what not. I was recovering though I was not bed bound. But last three days are worst for me. I suffered an uncontrolled diarrhea. It has limited my mobility, no work, no progress and no positive thoughts. The frequency, the amount and the consistency is same.
I have always been no no to diseases. This is for the first time I have become so weak, and sympathetic about myself. I feel I never loved myself and I never had thought I can be sick. A simple disease had kept me in the bed and I have no solution for it. I am always scared with food and water borne disease. This is the reason I never prefer to dine outside, no matter how close the person has invited. I never take food from outside, except tea and coffee. Tea and coffee has always been my weakness so I cannot avoid them. I definitely have reduced the cups and quantity but cannot not leave without it.
I myself treated the diarrhea first and it did not bother my medications. My friend is treating it and the progress is nil. My friend claims it is none other than a viral diarrhea. I node my head, I have no arguments for it. He says it will resolve in few days time. I don’t know how much is the few days time? 3 4 5 6 or 7 days from the day of onset. Virus behaves differently in individuals and the minimum days for me is God only knows. I am tired of siting over the comode. Neither it hurts, nor it pains. But my intestine makes so much of movements. That’s all I can feel.
I am disproportionately weak but the treatment continues.  When you are sick you need your people near by saying take it easy. I feel I am alone. Anshu is out of town with the new borne. Missing the cries, missing those fearless and careless smileys in his face. Badly missing son and his mom. Please come soon.

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